Monday, May 3, 2010
she's just as feisty as I am
Today I read Cjane's post and could totally relate.
I had my first baby and it almost felt too easy. Just like Cjane said, it was like I was playing house. I went to college every night, Mon-Thurs as soon as my son was two months old. I lost all the baby weight and more before he was ten months old. I felt great, was doing great, and enjoyed every second with him.
What was it that made having my daughter so much more difficult? Yeah, it was hard to have two babies now instead of one but there was something else. I think it was that I had a little girl now. Maybe not but I think that has something to do with it, for me.
All of a sudden, I had to raise a woman. And she's just as feisty as I am. And as feisty as LaLa is. And I have to figure out how to raise her with love and patience but still....deal with the strong toddler, and young lady she will be.
It's intimidating. From the beginning it was obvious to me that my relationship with Mela was going to be different than the one I have with little John. It used to stress me out more than make me happy.
Now, I welcome it. I'm grateful. And I'm happy that I will go through the process of raising a little girl.